Hey readers. Its 11:20 PM. I can't sleep. I'm sad and worried. Drama's over. 1JT's over. No more 1JT, only 2JT. Stress of streaming, separation, loss of bonding. I've been really a bad girl this year. I've made more enemies than friends. Well, I'd like to make it up somehow, i just dont know how. Someone help?

Anyways, 2/11/11 was the most memorable day of my life. The day was here. Drama night. The moment the drum beats were heard. It all just seemed... So dream like. Like nothing I've ever experienced before. Its like... Standing before tens, hundreds of people. And just giving your best shot. Well, I was once the girl who screwed up. Stuff happened, people said I screwed everything up. Before hearjng the drum beat, my heart raced even quicker than usual. Hmm. Its... Indescribable. 1JT'11, rock on!

Well, we had put up a wonderful performance and well... Shall not say anything here yet. I just... Well. Its gonna be hard saying goodbye. I really don't want to, but its not like I'd have another choice do I? Haiz. Decisions, decisions. I just can't seem like making up my mind. Should I go with him or stay? :X

Well, no point staying if people hate me for disliking someone right? Then again, all this is just too much for me to handle.

Someone advice me what to do next. Its like. The world's turning their back against me now. It all may seem so childish, but then again, you're not in my shoes. So stop judging me just by listening to what he said.

Should I carry on? Or should I... Just give everything up right now? I mean like... Sure, they'll be able to find a replacement soon... Right? Perhaps this time its real.

I wished I was back in PCPS. No worries, nothing. Sure I love sec school life and everything. But if I had a choice, i'd restart sec 1. Its like a uear wasted I guess? Tell me, till now how much do I remember? Hardly anything. My memory is alr fading... Nothing I do can make up for the bitching i've done this year. Perhaps this time, I should?

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