a woman once said that a man is like a deck of playing cards. you need a heart to love him, a diamond to marry him, a club to smash his head and a spade to bury him.

my memory's failing me. i wonder why. i can't remember anything that's going on now, i even thought today was a normal school day and woke up feeling something amiss. well, stress makes me bang my head on the wall.

anw, after reading SJ's blog ytd, i asked him what was going on luh. turns out the two of them AGAIN, did some stupid hanky panky with keekong and weiliang's food. seriously, putting like so much tobasco into someone's food, you can't expect them to eat and their stomach to feel okay. seriously? after going to secondary school, everyone's became so much more vulgar and mean. even me, i admit it. in primary school, everyone's favourite word was pathetic. thats alright, now everyone's favourite word is? f***. okay i know i said it a few times, but cos i was really pissed at everything i can't even control myself. but seriously, on the first day of sec school, i knew nothing about me was ever gonna be the same again. even characterwise. i am the sort who gets influenced easily, but i was never like that in the past. going out after school, buying stuff online, etcetc. 

i'm turning out to someone i wasn't originally, i was never like that. i don't know why i've changed so much, i wanna rewind time again. maybe God's trying to pull me back before i sink even deeper, but this is going too far. its all in God's hands now, i'm trusting him to rule over my life again. i'm tired of all this shit and i hate everything that's going on now.