who was i kidding. obviously they could tell my laugh was fake after everything that happened. after all, they were my friends since K2, and they knew my story just as much as i knew theirs. they were always there for me, and they know everything that's happening. they know everything, they understand. first hand experience and first hand relating is the key. don't be an idiot, asking about ---------- or asking to look at photos of ---------. why? i didn't even talk to ---------- for months. and i don't care, do i? 

if you don't know, don't pretend to understand anything when the truth's you don't know anything. nothing will ever last, relationships fail, friendship breaks like fragile glass.

you never spared a thought for me, did you? when you did that, i just HAD to see it, didn't i? you made it so obvious to me, on purpose. to hurt me. to remind me of the past. 

if relationships were made to last, nothing of this sort would've happened. my life would be so happy, and nothing would ever tear me down. not even you. you were my first, and you would be my last. never would i have faith in anything ever ever again. at first, it was just for fun. now? it's etched in my heart so deeply i would never forget.

life sucks, people make you sad and try to tear you down. i've been torn down and killed you in my head so many times, you're still in my head.

we would never be the same again.